We have all been in conditioned in some form or another. The conditioning goes deep and has profound effects on our life choices.
There is some element of chance in our lives yet for the most part we are completely responsible for all the outcomes and the actions we take, whether conscious of this or not.
My little niece who is 5, is smart and quick as a fox. She is ready for a big girls book and so I thought I would buy her my favourite book of all time – The Naughtiest Girl In The School, by Enid Blyton.
When I was a kid I must have read that trilogy at least 10 times each, no joke, I was obsessed by them. The heroine is smart, sassy, funny, pretty and very naughty.
Just before I made the decision to buy my niece that book it occurred to me that those books had influenced me so much that I truly did become the Naughtiest Girl In The School.
A few months after being awarded a prefect in my last year I was expelled. A complete scandal in our village, exactly how it happened for Enid’s naughty heroine.
I decided not to buy the book.
As kids we are influenced so profoundly by what we see, hear, read and experience. We are like sea sponges happily bobbing around absorbing our environment, for better or for worse.
Re-wiring the worse is no easy feat, one that takes bravery, strength, courage and commitment.
Coming from a working class English background I have had to work very hard on re-wiring my worse, especially in the area of my money conditioning.
“Money doesn’t grow on trees”.
“We’re not made of money”.
“They must be filthy rich”.
“We can’t afford it”.
These were all daily mantras that got drilled into my head.
One of the easiest ways I know to bring out the weeds at the bottom of our ocean mind is to state what it is that you WANT over and over again.
For example “ I am an abundant being that is financially free”.
Write it down many many times and wait for the gurgling and burbling reaction. At first it might be, “Go you, yes you can, you are, I believe in you”.
If you haven’t worked on any of your fears or conditioning then the contradictory blurts are waiting, lurking, ready to pounce to make sure their needs and heritage are sustained.
“What a joke!”
“Bullshit!”
“Who do you think you are”.
“Stop trying to be something you’re not”.
Ah the old friends from deep within the ocean, hello and welcome, so glad you’ve come to this party. Can I offer you a hug? Can I offer you some reassurance? Look, the thing is that I know you’re only trying to protect me and I appreciate that, but I am going to call upon you another time when I need your opinion and protection. Thanks and I love you.
Denial, pushing away or blasting out our conditioned responses and very real parts of ourselves never works. Like ignoring the needs of a crying child, either you attend to those needs or the kid stuffs them down and then has issues for life.
Love our ugly, outdated, perhaps sometimes loser-ish and even sinister selves and watch them feel validated and quiet down. They have a purpose, they want us to stay safe and sometimes their opinions could help us but only when we’re in control of them. If they’re running some background show they can get us expelled from what we love and catapulted into a world of yester year.
To know they self is to be a creator. Dig deep and find the sludge and seaweed that has stuck to your psyche. Only then, when we are conscious of it, can we become the creators and love the outcomes of our actions.
So to my naughty girl, I love you and your sass. You have served me well and god it’s good to be naughty sometimes, it really has got me places.
In love and to your manifestations
Emma
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